Thursday Night..wait..its Friday Night

I cant remember what day or night it is for the life of me...its all runs into each other..
We had kind of a rough afternoon..after having such a good morning…I feel like we are taking one step forward ..and two steps backward..I thought things were starting to look up a little but I guess not..she didn’t have any valium since her last dose last night and that probably was the mistake right there..So she was only on her epidural for pain and so the pain management team came by to check out her epidural after she woke up from a good nap this afternoon. All they did was roll her on her side to look at the epidural in the back to check for infection and it was all over! All we had to do was move her to trigger it…she was in sooo much pain..it hurt…she kept winching her shoulders up to her neck and squeezing her eyes really tight..The pain management team said she should have had valium maybe earlier so she can moved around and stuff bc one little movement causes her so much pain and on top of that her muscles started having spasms like crazy. that is why she was doing that with her shoulders and her eyes from the spasms.and so we had to give her an extra quick shot from her epidural to control it a little..we actually gave her two shots bc it wasn’t controlling her..we let the pain get the best of it..they need to stay on top of that! So I am going to make sure they maybe give her a dose tonight..the pain management team said that we don’t need to give it on top of each other but just give her a few doses through out the day so she can be moved without causing so much pain..
She also has the case of the itchies!!! She attacks her face like crazy..and of course its from the epidural but the medicine that they give her seems to keep the itchies under control! But you just have to stay on top of them to give it every four hours. Shouldn’t they stay on top of that???!!
The poor girl walks into the hospital just fine and goes to sleep and wakes up in so much pain and cant move..she has to be so confused..she don’t understand really as to why she is like this….
How can we possibly do this to her again in six months-a year again when we have to do the other side????  It is going to be hard. Hard on everyone! I'm sure in a couple of years we will look back on this and it will all be a blur..well I don’t really believe that either..I think it is going to be pretty clear actually. But I have to believe that we are doing the best for her and it will pay off..
Also I was going to write this on the other post but I spaced it out…but just wondering if you guys could keep my other kids in your prayers also…this is really hard on them too…they are really ready for us to be home..they miss us and of course we are still here for another week probably…